Adoption update...

We rec'd this update from our agency.

Dear Natasha and Mark,
I had so much fun visiting with your two darling, silly, slightly rambunctious two munchkins at Fontamara!
One day, for a whole hour I sat wincing upstairs at Fontamara while Marie Vierge created a master piece with my hair…..I would send you pictures of the end result, but then you would have blackmail on me for the rest of your life! Natasha, I really think you should let her do your hair before church some Sunday! Roberto was his shy, “don’t pay attention to me….but O.K. I really do want you to pay attention to me self”. He loved the Velcro mitt and tennis balls I brought and never could get enough of with playing with them.
They are both doing so well and are happy and well adjusted!

Marie-Vierge’s measurements are:
Height: 44 ½ “
Weight: 37.6 lbs.

Roberto’s Measurements are:
Height: 39”
Weight: 29.3 lbs.

As extra fun and in celebration of the holiday I brought a huge box of dress up clothes for the kids to play with. Boy did they have a blast…Well I’ll reword that, Marie-Vierge thought it was great…Roberto gave me the “What the heck do you want me to wear that for you Crazy Lady” look.
I truly had a wonderful time with your amazing children!
I gave them plenty of hugs and kisses from their Mamma!

Thanks to our friends at Foyer we have these fun pictures!!! The letter perfectly describes our little ones!

I also received an e-mail explaining they are trying something new in hopes of speeding things up in the end. They gave USCIS certified copies of our dossiers so they can begin the orphan investigation which requires an interview with the birthparents. This usually isn't done until the children have their passports. Because USCIS is allowing the investigation to be done with the certified copies we can get that part done at the same time our original dossiers are waiting in the MOI office. MOI approves the dossiers for Haitian passports. Once they are approved they send them to the immigration office who actually prints the passports. The average wait in MOI is 4 months. We are not yet in MOI but hope to be in the next week or two. So, with a little luck... they could be home in April. Of course, we will continue to pray for them to come home soon and would gladly accept a little miracle of an earlier arrival.

when it rains it pours...

...and I'm catching up on my blog!

Here is a photo. This photo inspired my last post "wonder". Along with the photo, my efforts to do what is right as a mother - which isn't always what is nice- also inspired that post.

The photo is of Marie with a dear friend. My friend was blessed to travel to Haiti in October for a Foyer de Sion parent trip. She met her two little girls for the first time. On Sunday, they attended church and my little Marie was there. She picked her up and gave her a kiss and told her "that was from your mamma". I'm very grateful for this picture....because this is the little girl I remember... and she is happy! This helps me to endure the long wait. Unfortunately, Roberto wasn't at church.....but I can guess his picture would be "less happy" because he doesn't like his photo taken and he probably wouldn't be too thrilled with a strange woman picking him up and kissing him!

The other thoughts that inspired the "wonder" post came from mothering Katiana. She is a beautiful and amazing young girl! She is so happy! She sings in the shower! WELL, I THINK THAT is a sign of happiness! She skips, she laughs, she teases, she is just so well adjusted AND...she sometimes pulls a crybaby act that mimicks my 5 year old neice. WELL.....perhaps this behavior worked for her in the past, or she is TESTING me. 2 1/2 times now, she has tried this approach. The 1/2 time I was able to nip it before it made it to tears. The other two times she used this behavior, I had to make a quick descision and it didn't include what seemed the *nice* thing to do. She poured on the tears. I told her she had no reason to cry. Last week I called her bluff when I suggested we talk with our neighbor (who speaks Creole) so I could better understand why she was "sad" and crying. I explained it was ok to be sad and it was ok to cry but she needed to help me understand why....and our neighbor could help. I think when she realized she was pulling the "crybaby, pouty, sulking, you are the meanest person in the world act" because I told her she couldn't do something, she realized she really didn't have a good reason to act this way and she didn't want to have to explain that to our neighbor. Of course, both times she has done this, it was from me telling her she couldn't do something. Both times *I knew* she wasn't really sad. I have seen her sad - and we turn things around very differently when she truly is feeling sad. SO..... I wonder - am I doing this right? I hope so.

wonder

I wonder about a lot of things. As a mother, I sometimes wonder if I'm doing things right. Thankfully, I have seven amazing children and they help me to be a better mother. Two of our children are still in Haiti. Collectively, I have only had a little over two weeks of actual mothering influence with them. Everyday, I think of them. I think of them in Haiti and with those thoughts come joy. Indescribable joy. And with those thoughts come a burden. A mothers love bottled up for two years - anxiety about their well being, sad they aren't with us --where we can tickle them everyday, and hug and love them, read to them, teach them new things, give them a place of belonging ....a family!-- frustrated the process of adoption has to be so complicated. So with each thought of joy comes a feeling of sadness because the are still in Haiti.

Maybe today I'm writing this because it was two years ago I found Marie and Roberto and I wondered. I wondered if *I* could be *their* mother. I wondered about a lot of things two years ago....things I no longer wonder about. They are Hixon's now. But I still must wait for the process of adoption to be completed before they can join us. I still wonder about plenty of things.....like how many more chairs and couches our dog Louie will chew up when they come home (Louie - our Jack Russell is currently struggling the most with having Katiana home), how they will fit into our family, what struggles having two more children will bring....of course, I like to wonder about the joys they will bring too. I wonder about the unknown. What I do not wonder about anymore is *if* we are doing the right thing. Of course we are. We are a lucky family.

catching up...

...computer time has been a bit scarce over the past weeks since Katiana came home! She has been home 7 weeks now! We have had fantastic fall weather - very mild and beautiful!





I'm a bit late.....but here is a Halloween picture...

I think Katiana was a bit uncertain about the whole thing....so the morning of Halloween, she told me "me no Halloween" so off to school she went dressed like a 7th grader. After school, Marisa told me Katiana seemed a bit upset on the bus and ran away from the group and home. Earlier in the day, I purchased a witch hat with purple hair attached, thinking she could at least wear the fun hat and still enjoy going door-to-door with the kids.......but Marisa told me she liked all the princess costumes she saw during the day at school. So......the witch hat became mine and Katiana and I took off for the party supply store at 4:00 p.m. on Halloween day to find her a princess costume! WE SCORED this "medieval princess" costume in the clearance section for $10! Add some beads, a black wig, a tiara and HER SISTER to do make-up and hair.....and she became a princess for the night! When the first group of children came to our door trick or treating.....I yelled for her to come answer it.......she was delighted to see them and hand out candy!

week-end in Portland - part III

Life has kept us busy! Too busy to keep up with our blog! SO...finally, I am posting part III to our week-end in Portland! The REASON for the trip was to attend the Holt International Auction. The goal -- raising money for the children in Haiti! The girl on the poster is one of Katiana's good friends -- who, by the way, is still waiting for a family. She is beautiful and we hope she is matched with a family very soon!

This picture is of Katiana, Gary Gamer, Holt's President and CEO and Peter Fontana who is the founder of the Holt Fontana Village.

Peter Fontana was asked to speak a bit about the realities in Haiti and about the needs of the Holt Fontana Village. During his speech, he asked Katiana to join him. Just after he spoke, the auctioneer asked for cash donations to help build another house at the village. He began with a request for a $5,000 pledge. Two people raised their cards! He then went to $2,500 and I think about 8 people raised their cards.....he continued with $1,000 and $500 and $100. I think from this 15 minutes they raised $35,000!!! We are convinced Katiana and her cute smile brought that money in! :)

Overall - The benefit brought in $159,000 dollars that will be used for the Haiti program! PLUS the $25,000 QuicKutz raised with the cookbook project! We were touched by the generosity of those who attended! I hope to visit the Kaliko and the Holt Fontana Village again someday......maybe then, they will have twice as many children to love... and a PLAYGROUND too!

After the auction ended Katiana meet Miss Oregon who was attending the benefit! Aren't they beautiful!

week-end in Portland part - II

After a lovely breakfast at the Comfort Inn in Seaside we drove back to Cannon Beach. The reason we returned to Cannon Beach was to watch the artists at Icefire Studio. I found this studio last March on a business trip. At that time I purchased a small blue and green vase to add to my china hutch as a reminder of my Portland trip.

Before we left, I was agonizing over which piece to buy to add to my collection -- and the sales women working there realized my pain. Instead of helping, she told me she had another piece that Jim Kingwell had just finished that she thought I might like. She retrieved it from the back room and sure enough.......I loved it! Of course, I immediately told her I thought it might break the bank! Because I had been admiring one similar to it in blues and greens and it was $500! She said, "let me check with Jim, he is very reasonable". Ok, up to this point I had my eye on a bowl that was $140 and I thought for sure she would come back and tell me the price would be somewhere between $400 and $500 dollars! Instead she said $250! So......here is a picture of it! It looks great in the hutch......and I love the combination of orange and pink glass twisting together!

Watching them work was fascinating!

Of course, we couldn't leave the coast without one more walk on the beach. Katiana wasn't interested because it was windy and cold again. Look at how angry the sea was! It had been very stormy with high winds the day before we arrived. I love the sea!

A week-end in Portland - part I

We went to Portland! Mark, Katiana and me. Our purpose? The Holt Fontana Auction to raise money for the village in Haiti. I don't have the exact number yet but our educated guess is Holt raised approximately $150,000.00 Wahoo! I will write more about that in part III.

We arrived around 10:00 a.m. on Friday. Our plan was to drive out to the coast and stay a night allowing us to explore the Oregon coast on Friday and Saturday before the big event Saturday evening.

We rented our car, got some McDonald's, drove in and out of lots of rain while working our way out highway 6 - which dumped us right at the Tillamook Cheese Plant! We took a self guided tour of the cheese plant....which includes samples! Yummy. Of course they do more than cheese :) So, loaded with our driving snacks (beef sticks, cheese curds and water crackers) we decided to also *sample* the ICE CREAM before we hit the road.

The picture below is along highway 101 between Tillamook and Cannon Beach! It was cold, very windy and absolutely beautiful!

We made it to Cannon Beach driving in and out of LOTS of rain! Fortunately our beach time was free from rain! BUT....it was COLD and WINDY!!! We were trying to get a good picture of us with the rocks in the background........and, well - we just got this one instead - HAIR everywhere!

So we bagged the rocks and let the wind blow in our face instead!

This is one of my "do it myself pictures"! Not bad huh? You can't even tell I'm holding my arm out and taking a picture!

OK.....I just love this picture! Katiana has that smile and laugh that speaks volumes! I think the cold, the wind and the fact that we were "willingly" out exploring in it amused her!

Love the light in this fabulous picture! Mark kept teasing Katiana about her hair standing up! too cute!

Katiana has a way of making friends. She just walks up and smiles and instantly perfect strangers are asking if she would like to feed the birds too.

Ok......that was a bit CLOSE! All the while, I'm praying she doesn't get a yucky white "you know what" on her new coat -- or worse in her HAIR!

So much JOY!!!

This was a miracle.....for sure I thought the camera was going to be blown off the rock and in the sand!

Haystack rock at Cannon Beach, OR

a trip to the zoo...

...the kids had a short fall break from school so we took advantage of the warm weather and went to Hogle Zoo! We had a great time! It was so much fun to see Katiana's reaction to all of the animals! Here are some of our favorite pictures....

elephants and giraffes...and Zac's beloved penguins....Katiana and Marisa's favorite was the baby Orangutan...
I cheated and pulled this cute photo from Wikipedia because we couldn't get a good shot of the cute baby orangutan that entertained us at Hogle Zoo.

very cute sisters....
All the kids....(minus Steven but adding cousin Amber) posing pretty with the giant ape!

uh..ooh...starting to act like...
...an ape
They were convincing me that maybe they should LIVE here too!

We ended the day with a train ride, some silly souveniers and Marisa losing her cell phone in the duck pond! Yes, it was retrieved.....and unbelievably it still works!

Gratitude...

...has been on my mind and heart daily over the past several weeks. First, gratitude to my Heavenly Father for my many blessings! I can not list my blessings because there are simply too many (and my kids will be home from school in 30 minutes!).

I am overwhelmed with gratitude as I ponder my many blessings. My family ranks very high on my list of blessings. My heart is full and tears come to my eyes as I watch how well each member of my family is adjusting to having Katiana home. I have seen the Lord's hand almost daily as we make adjustments. Every member of the Hixon family has stepped up and caught the spirit of our *new* family! For this I am unable to properly express my gratitude - it fills my heart with joy.

Gratitude for my family and friends who have reached out to us. Visits, phone calls, help, gifts - gifts from family and friends Katiana has never met --- when I explain a package that has arrived in the mail for her from a *friend* she hasn't yet met.......she lights up! I KNOW she understands she has family and friends that love her and are expressing their love with gifts.

Gratitude for neighbors. Neighbors who have welcomed her with such warmth. Neighbor kids who greet her at school and look after her (and track down the mean boys who squirted her with water in ceramics class....come to find out, it was an accident....but that didn't stop one of the neighbor boys from hauling the two culprits over to Marisa who was ready to give them both a good fonging!) And for another neighbor who helped us *forget* the hard day at school by having us over and teaching us how to make jewelry - LOTS of jewelry for all of us! What a fun way to turn lemons into lemonade!

Gratitude for people in our community. Dr. Clayton who convinced Katiana that Doctors are "tres gentile", Our friends who work at the Jr. High school who helped get her in all the right classes, a new friends mom who offered to come to school and translate during Ceramics class - all because her daughter has taken an interest in Katiana and knew her Mom speaks French.

Gratitude for Mansour Masse and Holt International for providing a safe and loving home for Katiana and for the good work they do around the world for those who are so deserving of help....and of course, for helping us navigate our way through a very difficult adoption process. Gratitude for all the housemoms who loved and taught Katiana over the past 10 years. Gratitude for Betty and Phil Snyder and Mission Possible and GLOW Ministries that also influenced Katiana's sweet attitude and for the work they do for so many others in Haiti. Gratitude for her birth parents who loved her and found a safe place for her to receive that which they struggled to give her.

Gratitude for ALL who picked up their phones and called on our behalf when we were denied her visa. Gratitude to those who were able to push things even more after we encountered the bad man in Haiti! I know good people I never met helped encourage the visa office in Washington D.C. on our behalf (of course, THANK YOU to a certain brother and an executive at Holt for their influence on this gov't office!)

Gratitude for our good friends in Haiti - at Holt Fontana and Foyer de Sion for their kindness and support. For their commitment to the children of Haiti. For their determination in bringing about positive change for Haiti. YOU inspire me to be better and instill in me a desire to do more. And....I am greatly blessed because I now have another beautiful daughter and she has this amazing Haitian spirit! AND I will soon be blessed with two more beautiful children who are equally bright in spirit. When I ponder the blessing of children......it makes the struggle of bringing them home pale in comparison. I am very blessed. For this I thank my Father in Heaven every day.

The moment I post this it will be outdated because my gratitude grows. Thank you all - my heart is full as I continue to witness the many blessings that are working together to bless our family.

Two week update...

...I can't believe it has only been two weeks since we have been home from Haiti!!! Katiana had a house full of family and friends to greet her. These two pictures were taken at the neighborhood park the day we arrived home!

The day after we got home (Saturday) we went to the mall to find her some shoes to wear with her pretty pink dress......the one I bought for her LAST December! Thank goodness it fits - because she looks so pretty in pink! I think the mall was a bit overwhelming! At least it was for me.

We spent a week together - just the two of us! We visited the Doctor, shopped, tried new food, registered for school and learned to ride a bicycle! Katiana is full of adventure! Well, with most everything....except FOOD! She is being a bit stubborn about trying new things! I think she has issues with texture.....because the mashed potatoes and marshmallows were a definite NO! Of course, every time we catch her eating french fries, potato chips, hashbrowns, etc., we make sure to tell her she is eating POTATOES! Ha, ha, ha.....she is a good sport about it. The night we went to dinner at the Brick Oven restaurant - she ordered the buffet. She was able to eat all she wanted from the salad bar and soup and pasta bar. We all started off with salads and when we got back to the table - Mark said "don't look now but someone dished up potato salad! She ate it too!

One night we had a really yummy chicken dish - one our family all loves! It has sour cream, cream cheese, cream of chicken soup and italian dressing mix. We eat it over rice most of the time and it is just yummy! I worried Katiana might find it too rich so I dished her up some rice without covering it with the sauce and set the chicken on the side. She refused to try it. We all went to work trying to convince her it was "gooood" but she wasn't buying it! So finally, after telling her to "try" it in Creole over and over.....I said (with a smile) "no try, no bicycle". She is so expressive and just couldn't stand the thought of no bicycle so in went the chicken and in went a bite of rice.....and before I knew it she was handing her plate to me for seconds! After dinner, she made sure the little bit of sauce from the crockpot was eaten before she brought me the dish to wash!

She loves pizza, hamburgers and soda pop. One morning she tried to have soda pop and potato chips for breakfast! Good thing I was there.....because I quickly let her know that wasn't a good breakfast!!! She got orange juice and waffles instead! She is mostly stubborn in the morning. I have made french toast and pancakes -- both of which she ate at the Kaliko with me in Haiti. She refuses to eat them - so that leaves her to choose between frozen waffles or cereal. Last Thursday when she refused the pancakes for a second time (and I even offered them with strawberries and sugar!) she ended up with some frozen waffles......and as she was eating them - I looked at her with a little smile and said "pancakes are better than waffles" she smiled back and I'm certain she knows exactly what I was communicating. Funny girl - testing me with food! What she doesn't know for sure yet is......Mom is MORE stubborn :)

We are discovering that she understands quite a few things in English. In fact, she probably has been laughing at us all along because we overly try to help her understand our English. I know it is really lame.....but when you don't know what else to do - you begin saying your words slow with stupid facial expressions like somehow that will make her understand better! I'm pretty sure she has been amused by all of it! She is pretty smart and a tease too! So......she fits in perfectly around here!

She surprised me the other day when the kids made some good old Kraft mac and cheese. I asked her if she wanted some and without hesitation -she dished it up and ate it up- as if she had eaten mac and cheese a hundred times before! So whats the deal? - is mac and cheese the universal kid food? I didn't get the impression they had it at the Holt Fontana Village.....but perhaps they do!

So.....it seems all I have been talking about is food.....but it seems to be pretty important to her! She has mentioned on more than one occasion that she doesn't want to get fat. So.....another good reason she can't have soda and chips for breakfast! :) I'm not quite sure of the foundation of her worries - but I'm sure as we begin to communicate better we will better understand a lot of things!

Speaking of communication! Her second week home - she started school! I had planned to play things by "ear" and realized we would probably drive each other crazy if she didn't get going to school soon. She is so eager to learn and I am so proud of her! We went together to the Jr. High on her first three days of school. I must say - she is very brave to "jump in" like she has. I came home thankful I didn't have to face the hallways of the Jr. High everyday! Wow! At least I was overwhelmed ....and the LUNCHROOM - now that IS scary! Anyway, she attended her first week and after she spent an afternoon and evening trying to learn decimals and place values.....we decided she needed to hold off on math and focus on English. So she has more *fun* classes like, choir, ceramics, p.e., english, and a FOODS class. I love that she is in a FOODS class - now her teacher and peers can try and get her to eat new things!

Today (Sunday) we went for a drive in the mountains to see the changing leaves and the SNOW! Yesterday as the snow was beginning to coat the mountain she said the mountain looked like "cookies and cream". Well, I guess having cookies and cream ice cream three times in two weeks has something to do with it! Before the drive, Mark helped her make a batch of brownies because yesterday I caught her in the pantry "eyeing" the brownie mix!

I will close with this beautiful picture taken in Haiti. Life in Utah is beautiful too....and I loved when Katiana said to me just a couple of days ago, while driving in the car "mom, Utah is pretty". Yes, it is and so is Haiti! "Pretty" can be found anywhere if you just know how to look for it! Katiana is such a delightful young girl! She has an amazing attitude and is full of life. We all feel very blessed she is finally home! She was so cute about one week home, she was sitting on the stairs alone and I asked her if she was sad. She nodded yes and I asked "why?" She threw her head back with a smile and said "I don't know". I'm sure she was missing her friends in Haiti - so we talked about that and I tried to help her understand it was "ok" to be sad and happy too. She really does have a sweet spirit about her! We feel very blessed and all are well here at the Hixon home!

part VI - favorite pictures...

...of all of us in Haiti!!!